I'm guessing ZX has trouble sleeping and it seems to have something to do with her quitting smoking
. Although she didn't post this as a blog yesterday, she e-mailed me this after she had read her post from yesterday.
i can't write at 3AM. I just reread that last post for a lark and the grammar is all over the place and it's more disjointed than usual. I'm on the patch and after I take it off it takes about an hour for the Nicotine to peter out of my veins. Well, I have to go see a man about a photo shoot.
Here is today's post.
So I stalked him. So what. So I accidentally might have shown up in a very conspicuous car in two places he might have mentioned he would be. What's the matter with that? God, I blew it. It went from spinning his computer chair around and giving me a surprise kiss which I shied away from because I thought he might bite me to an awkward A-frame hug goodnight. When all I wanted was for him to walk me to the door and give me a good night kiss with my wrists pinned to the wall. In the words of Napoleon Dynamite, “Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.”
New subject. I went to a friend's house for game night and he was drinking pineapple juice. “Oh, you don't drink either?” “No,” he says. “You know, not AA or anything. I just don't drink.” I find it so weird that there's such a stigma about alcoholism. An overweight person is not going to order themselves a cheesecake just to prove that they don't have a gland problem. It would be hard for someone who DOESN'T have a drinking problem to never drink. But it's really interesting to watch drunk people play games, calling people they've just met 'fucking idiots.' I also went to see an accountant today and I've come to the conclusion that I should probably deal with my corporate taxes which haven't been filed since '03 and the stack of mail which is two and a half feet high. I never take them seriously until they turn something off. It's just hard to discuss a time frame for life goals like a house and a family when lately it's baffled me where I'm going to find a guy I can stand being in the same room with two days in a row and not scare off by stalking.