Thursday, March 01, 2012

Today's Blind Items

This former B list television actress who was on a really big hit network show just a couple of years ago now just seems to float mindlessly and flit between boyfriends. She comes from a broken home and abusive home. Her dad used to beat her and get into bed with her. Her mom just let it happen because she was being beaten herself and did not want to provoke. Well, now the actress who is still very young only seems to date boyfriends who are abusive and willing to hit her. Her last boyfriend (former A list athlete with B list name recognition) was so scared that he would kill her he broke up with her. Her new celebrity boyfriend does not punch nearly as hard but seems to love it. Probably getting out his anger because he is closeted.

139 comments:

Get a Life said...

hayden p

annabella said...

that is just a sad nightmare.

cdanluva said...

Minka Kelly?

Such a sad BI

Beth said...

Hayden P for sure.

Didn't Himmmmmm essentially reveal this to us?

Beth said...

Also, it sounds like Hayden gets off on being abusive too.

Vicki Cupper said...

Oh good god. Horrific whoever it is.

Kari said...

This is so sad.

Danielle said...

Hmm so that Milo V-whatever was probably hitting her too then? That kind of doesn't surprise me, he seems like he could be a d***.

Giulia said...

Hang on, Hayden P is said to like to do the beatings, not be the one who gets beaten.

Borg Queen said...

Supposedly Milo was heavily into S&M, bondage, etcc. and her most recent ex-boyfriend was that huge boxer who could easily kill her. That so sad.

Audrey said...

Agree with Guilia. I don't think it's HP. She was outed as a beard for her boyfriends.

RenoBlondee said...

Agree, Hayden.

AndrewBW said...

Not sure about Hayden or Minka. Was Hayden's boxer boyfriend really A list? With B list name recognition? I can't even remember his name now! But yeah, the circumstances certainly seem to fit. As for Minka Kelly, no way - Derek Jeter has A++ name recognition; he's about as big as they get.

Whoever it is I hope they get help before they get hurt.

MISCH said...

This is awful

parissucksliterally said...

Minka is no way B list, or on a really big network show.

Giulia said...

... And can Scotty McKnight really be considered a "celebrity"? I know the term is practically meaningless nowadays, but really...

Jennifer H. said...

I don't think this is Hayden. Her personality doesn't seem to fit this. I think she's the "decider" in her relationships and she doesn't seem to "flit" or "float." Her actions seem more deliberate. Are there some other good candidates?

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Basil said...

Whoever it is they really should get some help. Terrible.

FS said...

I don't think this is Hayden either. The first part could be Hayden, but the description of the boyfriends seems to point elsewhere.

Also, I think Alexis Bledel also dated Milo and she does not strike me as the type to let anyone lay a hand on her, not with Lauren Graham around to keep an eye on her, so I can't see him as abusive (but yes I can see him doing consensual bondage stuff).

Ditte said...

It's the "still very young" part that puzzles me. I have no guesses so far.

FrenchGirl said...

i guess Hayden "save the cheerleader" P but it's only rumors for me

Momster said...

Heartbreaking. To have your dad do that to his daughter is unforgiveable. (and her mom, too)

Mr. Britta said...

Totally Hayden the cheerleader. It's very sad, and I'm not trying to be funny but she's always radiated daddy issues like crazy.

crila16 said...

Oh yeah...I could see this as Hayden P. Poor thing. It's so sad. Milo has a horrible rep for violence. He used to abuse that girl from Gilmore Girls when she was dating him. He really messed her up badly she had said at one time.

funkyniblets said...

What about Jamie Lynn Sigler (Sopranos)? She dated Mark Sanchez, not sure who's she's seeing now. Elisha Cuthbert (24) used to date hockey player Sean Avery and is now dating another hockey player.

timebob said...

this makes me really sad, all the clues fit to Hayden. I remember her as a young child on Guiding Light she was so pretty (maybe too pretty) for her age.

Pogue Mahone said...

Leighton Meester? I read somewhere she was born in prison where her mom was incarcerated...

Audrey said...

Hmmm...I like the Jamie Lynn Sigler guess. It seems professional hockey players are violent by nature.

Audrey said...

Right after I posted my previous comment, I remembered that "Enty" at one point LOVED JLS and told us all the time. So perhaps it's not her?

Seachica said...

The Sopranos wasn't a network show, so JLS isn't the actress.

AKM said...

BDSM isn't the same as abuse. Just sayin'.

Seachica said...

It doesn't have to be, AKM, but for some people, the line is very, very gray. For some people (NOT all), sexual pleasure that comes from pain (or inflicting it) stems from childhood issues.

weezy said...

Crila16 -- wow, I'd forgotten about that. Now the HP guess does make sense. Poor girl.

Christiane said...

FS - Milo sure seemed to have a temper, at least.

http://gawker.com/172627/gawker-stalker-milo-ventimiglia-calls-alexis-bledel-a-cunt

Princess said...

Definitely Hayden - her newest boyfriend is so obviously (to me) gay, her last boyfriend was 5 times her size and I could see him being scared he could kill her, her dad and mom split up when her dad got caught beating her mom, iirc...

Very sad.

Himmmm said...
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PS said...

WHOMEVER this is about - how in the world does ANYONE know about a father beating and getting in bed with his daughter, unless that father is or has been in PRISON. Sh*t like this happened to my best friend growing up. She finally confided in TWO people, me and our other friend, and then her mother. Her dad DID go to jail, we helped as much as possible, but I have never, ever told another soul about any of it. That's her story to tell, and even though we are no longer in touch, I'd NEVER violate such trust. So, either this girl's dad IS in jail, and it's public record, or a close friend and/or boyfriend is gossiping enough that "word" gets back to Enty? Whoever is doing that is nearly as bad as the father. He/She should either support the girl in telling the authorities, or tell the authorities if it is ongoing, and then never ever use such despicable behavior as fodder for mindless gossip. Sorry, nerve HIT.

Himmmm said...

PART ONE:

Okay folks, here goes. Excuse the spelling as I'm on an iPhone w/o spellcheck. First, sorry for unleashing all of this. Second, I am NOT judging this young lady - just saying that help is there for all of us if we accept it and want to help ourselves.

And third, if this BLIND ITEM hits and spreads through the web far, wide, and rapidly, I may have to remove this comment. It can cause problems I cannot explain right now. (Don't want trouble for "Enty", so don't be shocked if the whole item and/or my comment gets erased to avoid trouble).

So here goes: Yes, this IS Hayden.
100% totally. I know this for a FACT. The wording of this item is NOT 100% correct - which may be intentional to deny it legally, but it is close. But there's far more to this than is being mentioned, revealed, or even hinted at. For all you GoogleSleuths out there just look up the past news stories about her Dad getting arrested on "domestic" issues - then her mom dropping it. It's not just about a fight, smack, or basic domestic issues. It's about sexual perversions, videotapes, witnesses, and the loss of MONEY and FAME.

I am a FORMER personal "friend" of a woman named Diana Jenkins. Doubt you know her, but she's the Rosetta Stone of every scandal and perversion from Hwood all over the globe. She's an Uber-wealthy divorcee whose hubby ran UK’s Barclay's bank - and she ran the Arab investors for the bank! She's been running a high class call girl/party-girl ring for Arabs, Wall Street, DC, Royals, and Hollywood elites. She's also a MAJOR philanthropist, arts supporter, political donor, and social hostess to EVERYONE. Her best Hwood pals include Sean Penn, Clive Davis, Ari Emanuel, George Clooney, Cindy Crawford, and her “little pet” named Hayden. Diana is the connector of wealthy Arabs and Asians and Athletes with Hwood actresses/models. She also is a sick and twisted bitch. When Hayden and her own Mommy went on the outs, Diana Jenkins took that place in her life, by Hayden's choice.

Leslie P. is not just a poor victim in this trainwreck. Trust me. She's at LEAST 50% responsible (if not more) for encouraging, enabling, and at times even participating in her hubby's twisted fucking life. Leslie's kinks cross the line into depravity, illegality, and inhuman sickness. As in: Ryan ONeal, John Phillips, Tish Cyrus, and Dan Schnieder territory. (Far worse than Pimpa Joe Simpson!)

She's not just had chances to stop it or walk away with the kids, but she elected to not protect her kids - and give in to the hedonistic sickness in her bedroom (all for her own greed). You think Dina Lohan is bad?

Leslie's guilt is compounded by trying to save her daughter's "IMAGE" (so as not affect her earning potential); and hoovering her own mountain of drugs, booze, fame, and fucking (of everything with legs)...Leslie IS as bad as her hubby - maybe worse because she KNEW it was wrong but didn't stop it and at times fueling it.

It's easy to argue that Hayden is forever a victim which drives her own insane life choices - and I'm not a psychologist - but she has taken it further into becoming a willing perpetuator of it (and saying she loves it). Not just the physical and mental violence she enjoys, but her insatiable appetite for the most bizarre shit she can indulge in to "top" herself. She was offered help by some who genuinely cared for her and worried for her. She mocked them and tore off on her own streak. Now? She craves it and considers nothing taboo. NOTHING! Just ask Mario Lopez (right Enty?).

CONTINUED:

Himmmm said...

PART TWO:
There is NEVER any excuse for inflicting sick acts upon a child (of any age). This stuff all began in Hayden's teen years. And her Mom was as much a part of it as her Dad. Leslie's idea of a fun time was a coke-fueled orgy with 2 young studs...and her daughter and daughter's pals watching or joining in. Leslie preyed on Hayden's boyfriends, and Hayden preyed on 40yo-60yo producers, directors, agents, and studio bosses - male and female - (even offering one of them an in-home party he'd never forget). All this before she aged 19.

Meanwhile, dear old dad with his own substance abuse issues made sure to tape EVERYTHING in the house. Including Hayden's girlfriends, sleepovers, and "quality time" in the family jacuzzi pool. When some of her gf's complained, their parents forbade them from ever going to that house again (and threatened charges). THEN, in return, Hayden would SNUB them out of her circle. So if you wanted to go to the clubs, shopping swag, and live the high life? You didn't rat out about Hayden's SICK family life. Because - after all - EVERYONE wants to be famous right? EVERYONE wants to be a celebrity...or a BFF hanger on, right?

Sorry to unload all of this stuff at once. I'm sorry. I'm just sick and tired of all of this, and parents who are so fucked up that they breed fucked up kids.

My family was not Ozzie and Harriet - and it damn near killed me and destroyed everyone I loved - and my pathetic career- as a result. But when I realized it was time to take charge and stop the cycle, stop blaming my Dad, and be my own person? My life turned around (with the help of my amazing wife and some REAL friends who loved me). I just wish others could do the same for themselves.

(PS - I have no issue with ANYTHING people voluntarily do in their private life as long as it is consenting - (kids and animals cannot consent!), and NOT hurting another mentally or physically. I'm no saint, especially in my youth but am close these days-lol. And all I'll say about another old topic? I am NOT a cross-dresser! My wife happens to collect vintage clothing and it's tough to surprise her when you share a home and office. But I admit I DO look good in pumps and a dress,:-)

For all of you TRUE diehard Hollywood underworld detectives? Find all you can about the notorious lady named Sanela Diana Jenkins - the ex-British socialite from the Balkans. Read British media stories about her divorce, and IGNORE the PR fluff about her rags to riches story. THEN look at her pics with all her pals, and who she's with. CONNECT ALL THE DOTS to all the blinds you know. Also look into a photo book called ROOM 23 filled with Hwood stars that Diana “produced”. Look closely at the list of stars who took part in that project. She is the HUB on the blind gossip wheel, and the Rosetta Stone of socialite dirt. Good luck!

New Life and Attitude said...

WOW!!!!!!

Jaiden_S said...

@Himmmmm

Holy shit.

Snakeoiler said...

Haven't read the comments, but the first thought that came to mind was "this is so sad." I wonder if I'll have any thoughts about it more powerful than that.

Snakeoiler said...

No, even after reading Hmmmm's post, which he probably should not have posted until he was disembarking on Pitcairn Island, I don't have anything else more powerful than "this is so sad."

Jaime said...

speechless.

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Nina said...

Wait one second -- wasn't there a blind about a actor ordering and dressing up in vintage womens clothing?? Is Himmmmmmm the actor?? Or am I imagining things......

And agreed -- so sad.

Krystal said...

To Himmmm-wow and thanks!! I love reading ure posts. This site just gets better and better! I completely agree with your comment about a person moving on from their past. I hope that poor girl gets some help. Now it's time to go find out more about that horrible woman you described. Thanks again!

Krystal said...

Okay, seeing images from this "Room 23" book, it just looks like a portfolio of high-class hookers (who happen to be very famous models and actresses including Hayden) and their clients. Obviously if I hadn't read Himmmm's post I would just think "that's a different concept for a book" but in light of what I know now... scandalous/juicy!!!

Jaime said...

Okay, here's my sleuthing for the time being on that Diana chick that really is proud of her looks judging from her flickr account. Friends she's with:

- George CLooney (a TON)
- Bono (WTH? Everyone of his songs are about his faith, we all sin and all, but ???)
- Dennis Hopper
- Cindy Crawford
- Jessica Biel
- Gina Gershon (in a pic with Hayden from the book)
- Kid Rock
- Guy Ritchie
- Random models that I recognize but not by name
- Matt Damon and his wife
- Hayden P. in that book 23 (makes me cringe with all this info--run away Hayden and know you're worth something!)
- Lindsay Lohan
- Jade Anderson
- Marissa Miller
- Amanda Bynes

Basically it seems everyone's in that book. ;-)

Wow, the list goes on. This is interesting, although I have no clue what any of it means. Just thought I'd share some of what I found

Andy said...

Hayden in Room 23:

http://socialbutterflies.wordpress.com/2009/07/21/hayden-steams-up-room-23/

Candice said...

So shocking & terribly sad. Im happy something like this was revealed, they dont deserve immunity. And whoever this woman is shes sick.

Krystal said...

Completely agree. I wish all blinds about abuse would be revealed so that the abusers couldn't hide anymore. The fact that this woman preyed on someone who was already probably very damaged is horrible.

We think we know what goes on behind the scenes in Hollywood b/c of the blinds etc. but I bet it's so much more depraved than we could ever imagine. Poor girl!

Netta said...

Some of the guests in ROOM 23 are:

Ashanti

James Blunt

Roberto Cavalli

George Clooney

Cindy Crawford

Minnie Driver

Dennis Hopper

Rachel Hunter

Sir Elton John

Kid Rock

Heidi Klum

Ray Liotta

Lindsay Lohan

Kelly Lynch

Tamara Mellon

Jonny Lee Miller

Moby

Tatjana Patitz

Christian Slater

Sharon Stone

Donald Sutherland

Cheryl Tiegs

Tony Ward

and many more...

Found it on Amazon.

I saw a lot of pics with Guy Ritchie and some with Johnny Depp. Now I'm so sick to my stomach I'ma stop looking.

I hope Hayden's parents rot in hell. It is so beyond wrong what they've done to her (no matter if now she says she "loves" it, whatever "it" is and I don't want to know) I don't even have words to express my disgust. And being a writer it really pisses me off I can't find words to encompass this kind of shit.

Gah.

Robin the Mad Photographer said...

Himmmm:

HOLY. FUCKING. SHIT.

I've always enjoyed your posts, but I don't want to say I "enjoyed" this one, for reasons I'm sure you understand..."gobsmacked" doesn't begin to cover it. (This is the second time I had my mind blown today, and not in a good way, either; the first one being the judge in Montana and his horrible "joke" about Obama's late mother--you just don't tell "jokes" like that about 99.99% of people's mothers, and the .01% like Leslie Pannetiere, where it's possibly true, well...now I'm really feeling sick.) The next time I start beating myself up over being just a middle-aged spinster w/a cat, I need to remember this and remind myself that, faults & all, I'm still a decent human being w/family & friends whom I love and who love me...it's not much of a life, damn it, but it's mine, and at least I haven't left ruined human lives in my wake.

As for the lists of Diana Jenkins' associates, I wonder how many of them are around her for the sake of hanging out w/people, how many dabble in debauchery, and how many of them are up to their eyeballs in the muck...then again, I probably don't want to know the answers to that one.

Anyway, whomever you are in real life, please be careful, and look out for your wife and family, too, OK? We don't know you personally, but we do care about you around here, and we don't want anything bad to happen to you or yours. *virtual hug*

feraltart said...

Himmm, thank you for your courage in revealing this. I hope that she does get help. The people who truly love her would seem strange to her given the horrendous upbringing she suffered through. One can only hope that with maturity & understanding she will look around and see that she can choose a better, healthier life for herself & hopefully try to repair the damage done to her in every way.
Congratulations Himmm on making a life for yourself and your family that is free from the shackles of your past. I wish you nothing but the best.

Sherry said...

All I can say is Oh my F*&%&%g God Himmmmmmmm...That is one reveal for the ages. Wow..And also glad you have found some modicom of peace and happiness.. You deserve it.

PS said...

Himmm, I have to say that was about the post(s) I have ever read on a blog in all the years I've read these things. Wow. Thanks for sharing. You turned a blind about gossip into a very real, very sad truth - making this about empathy and understanding instead of salacious tawdriness. Thank you. I didn't like this blind at all, because if someone knows this to be true, either do right by it and get it to the authorities, or at least respect the existence of real horror - don't take a tragedy and turn it into a fun, anonymous tabloidy guessing game. That's just disgusting.
Bravo to you Himmm on getting out, getting better, being courageous and staying strong. We support you and wish you only the very best.

beth said...

The cross-dressing reference is to a recent National Enquirer blind reprinted here: http://blindgossip.com/?p=39767.

beth said...

Here's the link to Enty's reprint of the NE blind: http://www.crazydaysandnights.net/2012/02/national-enquirer-blind-item_17.html

reports said...

Interesting Mario Lopez comment. I'm from San Diego (as is he) and he used to date a friends sister in high school. "rumor" had it that he used to hit her.

He owned a club in TJ and it sickened me to see the girls fawning over him knowing what I knew.

So that fact that he pops up in this blind about abuse really is in line with everything I've heard over the past 18+ years.

Yes- I'm mid-30s and we graduated in the mid 90s.

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Colleen said...

Well, that happened.

Before I read Himmmmmm's post, I thought it was Hayden because of those pictures that showed up of her in a bikini on a boat a few years ago with bruises on her legs.

jetfuelgenius said...

wow hmmmmm whoever you are, whatever your details are, congratulations on turning your life around...don't ever let that gift get away from you...a new start after making catastrophic mistakes is really a precious thing...

I don't know whether you are even real or not or any of this information is but if it and you are legit, when it comes to abuse I think however these blinds get revealed and the victim can get help or stop the cycle is a good thing.

Having said that, I freely admit that I love the blinds...some people do crosswords, I do these...every famous person I've ever known has some weird bent to him or her...I'm so glad I'm just a nobody.

:)

wenx said...

On my way to bed...two things I will be thanking God for tonight in my prayers:

1) Himmm, that you went through fire & made it out to the other side to find the family, peace & happiness you deserve (whoever you are!)

2) that I was born into a "boring", loving & safe family without whom I would be nothing.

Huh...to think when I was a kid, I dreamed of being an actress & famous. Now, I am very glad I got the life I do have instead! (like the teaching part, for example...never expected that but I love it w/ all my heart)

G'night, all.

MadLyb said...

@Himmmm has posted some of the juiciest stuff I've ever read on one of these sites. Wooowee!

DontRainOnMyPrada said...

@himmmm once you post something on the 'net it's permanent...you can delete it but it's already been copied, in fact I found this on another site and came back over here to read it in context. I appreciate you sharing this but hope you are safe from any retaliation....

Centaurea said...

From now on, I'll be reading Himmmm's comments in RDJ's voice.

DontRainOnMyPrada said...

I looked Sanela Diana Jenkins up and didn't find any dirt on her at first glance...she seems to be considered a lovely philanthropist .... Ugh. Also, now I have a theory as to why Sheryl crow dumped kid rock so quickly... :P

skimpymist said...

@HIMMMM. What other blinds have you posted on. Is this your first extensive reveal. Also are you saying that Hayden is a high end call girl.

Unknown said...

@himmmm Thanks for having the courage to reveal the truth about this sad situation. Hope the Hwood machine doesn't come after you too hard. You are an inspiration for surviving all the sh*t you lived through with humor and grace. Blessings to your family and friends for supporting you through the dark times.

To HP - Honey, please get some help. You are an amazing, beautiful, talented lady and deserve better. You never got to decide for yourself what you wanted and just because it's all you've known doesn't make it right.

dia papaya said...

Sorry! I'm a computer dork and just figured out how to put my name with my post. No longer unknown.

Enty - I love your blog! I love the communtiy you've created - the nicest commenters around!

@himmm - You do leave the best comments ever! I'm always checking for your juicy truth ;-)

J-Mo said...

copied and pasted! very interesting. Hey JAIME: have u not seen photos of Bono cuddling w the model Helena Christenson and his wife? Not to judge but his personal life doesn't appear to be so pristine.

J-Mo said...

well i looked at the photo again and it could be innocent, he might be resting his face on her shoulder to look at a photo and they're old friends from way back, i think when she was w michael hutchence, & they have kid the same age. BUT he has also vacationed w penelope cruz and three-wayed w patsy kensit so who knows.

HowdyDoody said...

@FS: it's well known Milo beat Alexis Bledel up.

Dani said...

Himmm - I would love to bring you milk & cookies & listen to any story you'd be willing to share. The way you tell a tale is fascinating.

So glad that you've managed to subdue your demons. That's no easy task. You truly are an example of "if you set your mind to it"...

So...when can I bring you milk & cookies? ;)

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Rose said...

Wow himmm! That was juicy and a lot to digest. Thanks, I love reading your comments.

It's still very sad what Hayden P came from.

ohthat said...

Oh holy Jaysus. My mind is blown. Can't believe the real power players in HW are so open and yet not. I mean I objectively knew that but it's still stunning to see it proved. That Room 23 book is basically a prostitute lookbook. Crazy stuff.

Oh and hi, RDJ?

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Momster said...

Wow. Glad I came back to revisit this thread. TY, Himmmm.

Rileyray3000 said...

Maybe I've just read one too many conspiracy theories but am I the only one who thinks there's some weird symbolism about all this being connected with the number 23?

Himmmm said...

I just wanted to offer an honest, humble, and personal THANK YOU to ALL OF YOU for your kind and warm words. You, my friends, are amazing in your compassion.

I don't think any survivor of any abuse - or any addict ever totally gets over things - but we try every day and never give up, give in, or give out. I'm glad you liked the insight into the blind, and I too am sad it could not have been a more positive one. During my years of tailspin self-destruction I also thought I had no shelf life and always right. Then I discovered I had hurt every person I loved the most (and punished myself even more which became a cycle of hell). I'm no better than anyone else, and we ALL have something knocking us down (a past, family, debt, depression, disability, or self-image). There's no magic bullet - and I, just like you, always have to focus on the positive and drop that anchor before I drown.

I wish Hayden the peace, clarity, and vision I found. There's only 2 ways these turn out: the good way; or the awards show montage.

Until a person can be free or sober enough to look into a baby's big eyes and know what unconditional love really is...and feel the warmth of that precious child's breath asleep on your bare chest laying there - it's hard to explain it to a 22yo time-bomb.

There is no drug in this world ever made to make me sacrifice the privilige of waking up each morning beside of my beautiful wife. To watch her eyes slowly squint awake with a smile...as she swats me with a pillow for staring at her...THAT is worth everything. And when I stopped punishing myself for the trail of fire I left in my wake, and forgave myself and family, it was only then that I could BE forgiven.

Even if I should stumble tomorrow, I will always get back up. That's what we do...we keep on digging just to see that sun rise again. Have a great and safe weekend my CDAN friends ;-) Himmmm

adrianeschramm said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=weSzkIB8184

Please watch Conspiracy of Silence concerning this very topic.

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MLE said...

Same here.....

FS said...

Himmmm
You won't see this post, but I want to thank you for posting this. I was really hoping that the clues at the end of this blind were pointing away from Hayden, but I knew deep down it was her (I just didn't want it to be). Your info about her makes me very sad, but your personal story gives me hope for her even if she has refused help so far. Thank you for posting, and most of all, thank you for the loving words that you always use on this site to describe your wife. Feels good to end the week thinking about that instead of the words Rush Limbaugh has used to describe women this week.

1:40 pm, 3/2/2012

surfer said...

Thank you Hmmmm for sharing all that you did.

Words pretty much fail me at this point, but I need to say thank you so much for sharing - not just the juicy stuff, but for the fact that you felt comfortable enough to open yourself up to us.

Good for you for wanting to be in a better place and being fortunate enough to have good people in your life.

There's a lot of truth in the saying that with age comes wisdom.

I also remember your encouraging words to me many months back when I was feeling a bit bummed (the week I broke up with my bf and one of my best friends died). You will never know how much that meant to me. Words can have a huge impact, even coming from a virtual friend.

L said...

Bless your heart, Himmmm. I've just caught up on all the comments from yesterday's Blind Item and I second all those who have sent you and your family virtual hugs and well-wishes. Thank you for sharing your insights and experiences.

Jeri said...

Thank you Himmmm.

I've seen Hayden in many shows but I remember an old Law & Order when she was a child. She was so cute and such a good actress, that show impressed me more than anything else I have seen her in.

Really really sad. A real bummer.

shash said...

sdfsdfsdf

surfer said...

I also wanted to add that the name Diana Jenkins sounded familiar - sure enough, after I Googled her, there was the picture of her (in a baseball hat) in Haiti with Sean Penn.

As if being philanthropic and doing good work will make her hands clean.

shash said...

Hi all. Newbie here. I've seen a few instances where people reference RDJ (Robery Downey Jr?) with regards to Himmmmmmm. Re: Himmmmmmm's statement about Hayden... if people think this is RDJ, remember that he was in Ally McBeal with Hayden P! Perhaps she confided in him then? Dunno. Just a small observance. Devastatingly sad no matter who it is :'(

shash said...

Robert, not Robery :/ Sorry!

hunter said...

Mind. Blown.

To my fellow CDAN'ers, I cannot believe how lucky we are to have Himmmmmmmm (thank you Himmmmmmm).

And wow. Mind blown - that's some sick sh't and I agree with a previous poster - I used to want to be a celebrity actress but I don't think that path would have worked out for me (I'm very pretty and had low self esteem as a teen/young adult).

Man I'd be f'ed up. Scary business.

SEX WITH ANIMALS?!?!?!?

jrowenag said...

I think it is that Mila(sp) young women.....her and MCully are known bangers...being a recovering one myself everything u read.....they have been arressted for possession of heroin and needles in another country trying to come home....and u NEVER saw the at events....always holed up or traveling....best drugs aren't here...I have no proof but from being in the exact same situation makes sense.....whomever it is I hope they get help no one deserves that

hunter said...

@sash -- good call

Now let's all not try too hard to identify Himmm so perhaps he will visit us again like the tooth fairy.

= D

RenoBlondee said...

Wow! I just got caught up and my jaw is dropping.

@himmmm Thank you so much for your comments and insights. I am so happy you made it through your demons and are so happy now. Your last comment made me tear up.

RenoBlondee said...

Oh and also this.

Tish Cyrus is into disgusting kink?

booyah said...

http://www.thehollywoodgossip.com/2009/06/hayden-panettiere-nude-in-i-love-you-beth-cooper/

This is telling and sick (talking about her nude scenes in I love you Beth Cooper):



"I had these little sticky petals on my boobs, but that was about it. My dad calls me such an exhibitionist," Hayden Panettiere, 19, continues. "He always says, 'God, even when you were little, you were such an exhibitionist

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Jason B E said...

It's Friday night and I'm just reading this. Incredible. I always thought there was something so sad about Hayden and now that she's older I can see something else in her. A detachment. A vulnerable coldness perhaps. The kind of girl Hitchcock would have loved. Now she's at the stage where nothing is shocking to her and those extremes she's craving are going to get more and more twisted. Unless she wakes up one day and decides to clean up, but I don't see that happening.

You have friends here Himmmm. We're all friends. I find myself at the gym or at work most days just anxiously anticipating until I can log on here to CDAN to see how everybody is doing. The live blogs have especially been a blast this year. Having suffered abuse in my younger years (in school - not from my family) I know what that's like too. I removed myself from that environment and spent the years since then quite happy. I had people that supported me. I hope Hayden finds that relatively soon as well.

Mari said...

I agree, Jason B.E I think of Marnie, in particular.
I also am so happy and relieved to see people are well and happy here, I think you're a great group and I know I've said it before, but I'll say it again, Enty, you're Aces. CDaNers, you're Top Shelf all the way.
You see a lot in the ER. Some super things/people but you also see plenty sad, sick (not illness sick) and scary things as well. I have seen pretty much all there is. My friend took a short job as an "on set" nurse, it was a location shoot, and I think it was a miniseries, but I'm not sure. Anyway, she lasted 2 days. Said that was enough, and wouldn't tell us what the heck happened.
Yeah. I can imagine.
Himmmm, I hope that you have a happy, wonderful life and that you remember to give your loved ones a hug whenever you can. We send some virtual hugs to you!

Ditte said...

I read this blog every day, I don't always comment because of lack of time - I have a one-year-old boy. I just want to thank all of you for being so open and honest and caring. Blinds like these scare the sh-t out of me. I was molested a child and would not want it to happen to my worst enemy. It's sickening to read Himmmmm's stories, but I believe the truth needs to come out.

BlahFrickinBlah said...

I knew there was a reason I didn't like Jessica Biel! Bitch ain't right. Bono too! Anyway, it's disgusting that some people will just sell their souls for fame. Beyond disgusting that they will sell the souls of kids for fame. This shit makes my skin crawl.

Love me some RDJ though. We share a birthday! Brilliant actor. I'm glad he made it through the other side. That's a miracle itself. He could prance around in dresses for all I care. He's still the poo.

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Happymostofthetime said...

Himmmm, I'm not religious but BLESS YOU for speaking out. It's time for someone to stand up and say that business as usual is not OK. Too many talented people are being lost, and too many onlookers are just looking on. Celebrities are not super special people who deserve super special treatment - but they don't deserve to be ignored while they go down in flames either.

If you are who many of us think you are - just keep doing what you're doing. You are so inspiring on so many levels. SO MANY people love you, you got your power back, and you have the power to change things.

McWhadden said...

@Himmmm Dan Schnieder level of perversion? Is that a well known thing. Given his access to young people that is at least as distributing as anything else posted.

FS said...

Just wanted to send a quick, safe hug to Jason and Ditte, if they see this. Strength is freedom. :)

Mutiny said...

Himmmmmm....thanks for sharing. I admire people who take charge of their lives after they have gone through their own personal horror stories and were able to live to tell their story. Even more so, when your are willing to expose those that continue to cause harm to others, especially children. It is a brave thing to do, knowing what it may cost you if you are identified.

There are only a couple of people that I am honored to know that have stood up for what they believed despite the cost. One is a teacher and the other is my husband- and he would hate it if he knew I said this-and I do know what it personally cost them to do the right thing, but I also know they both are able to sleep well and look into a mirror every morning without regret.

And if anyone wonders about the worst in human behavior, it happens in more areas than in Hollywood. My husband was a cop in one of the most crime ridden cities in the state/country for almost eighteen years. He has seen some ugly, ugly stuff. It has taken eight years and a few shots of vodka to talk about what he has seen, heard and experienced. And unlike Himmmm, he had the opportunity to arrest these people for their crimes or help remove children from their horrible homes.

So when I say I understand what it takes to lay it all out, I do and I truly appreciate the courage it takes.

ardleigh said...

OK I know I'm rather late to this party. Forgive me I was in the hospital getting my gallbladder out. Holy Shit did I miss great things.

Himmmmmm -thank you for the reveal. You tell the best truths. I am glad you survived your own personal hell and came through to tell the tale. We appreciate you here and wish you all the best.

Ditte said...

Thank you FS :-)

Stephanie said...

@Himmmmm Thank you for being so open! And many blessings to you! :)

dia papaya said...

"With great power comes great responsibility" or so the comic book saying goes.... But I fully and passionately believe this. If you are in a position to make a difference, step up to the plate and make a damn difference! We need more warriors in the world and less pervy child abusers.

@himmmm you are a doll face for speaking out and I love all the sweet things you say about your wife! Herrrr is a lucky woman!!!

@mutiny give your cop husband a big hug from me. I love my good cop friends for all the hard work they do with little reward. Especially the good ones cuz they take a lot of crap when the bad ones f*ck up.

Mr Enty Pants - I heart you too. I never comment in the comments but the CDAN peeps are a classy bunch.

Melody Clark said...

To the people who added the 23 comment, let's not connect those dots, shall we? Robert Anton Wilson created the 23 synchronicity thing as a fnord. It has no real significance, magical or otherwise. There may be some wacky RAW people out there doing disgusting things, but Bob Wilson was a good fellow who died a very poor writer. He certainly was no influential Illuminati whatever.

Alti2de said...

http://perverseintellect.blogspot.com/2010/01/is-hayden-pennetierre-freak.html

Unknown said...

@hhhmmmmm-one week sober today. thank you Lord. I realized family was more important than any drug. it is really sick what some people do to other people they are supposed to love and protect. we all have family secrets that sometimes can manifest in destructive behavior. I hope and pray for Hayden and all the other girls involved in that womans business. I always had my suspicions when those pics sufaced of her on that boat a few years ago. and she is also a supposed hardcore drug user. I hope she finds that champion for her that I have. God bless you hhmmmm. keep us posted.

Sunnyhorse said...

Nice work, Unknown, and my best wishes for your continued sobriety, health, and happiness. There will be a lot of people here pulling for you.

Himmmmm, I'm so glad you've turned your life around and found joy in your life. Thank you for trying to right this awful wrong. Please be careful. :)

maj said...

I've been reading Enty since the very beginning. I've always enjoy the commentary but never felt like joining in until today. What would life be like if everyone revealed "blind" items (not just Hwoods) and spoke the truth!! Good for Himmmm for speaking up!! Be well!!!

KellyLynn said...

If himmmmm is he-who-has-already-been-named, he looks great in lipstick, too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2q5i2SO1DyM

Just sayin'.

Mutiny said...

Congrats Unknown for taking that step. I wish you well.

Theresa said...

Noticed in those pictures where Hayden is on the yacht hanging with the blonde woman with big bruises on her butt they were all drinking Neuro Drinks. (Noticed it because I buy them and thought "Neuro Drink, yum")Then after a little poking around I found "Neuro Drinks™—the brainchild of Chairman, CEO and Founder Diana Jenkins"

Boy, it does all circle back to her!

Theresa said...

If Diana Jenkins' drinks are stocked on board ship, isn't that an indication she might be the yacht owner?

This is in reference to the the blind item about an actress in Cannes with an older guy and 2 "pros". I'm pretty sure that was revealed as her, too lazy to look. (But we all know....)

http://www.perthstreetbikes.com/forum/f22/hayden-panettiere-big-pics-84176/

Mutiny said...

Check out ONTD-they have researched this whole story. 36 pages of following the tracks.

Soleste said...

@Himmmm do you remember the 1999 or 2000 bombing in New York City at the front of Barclays Bank on 75 Wall Street? I worked in the bldg for another company, never was able to find out what that was about (whodunnit, and why) and it "went away" from the news so very fast. Is this connected to what was going on with her at the time? It seemed as though someone was sending a message to someone, it's what we all thought.

Soleste said...

PS @Himmmmm I did the lookup on Jenkins, and Oh My Gawd. For those of us who are familiar with risk mgmt on Wall Street, of that era, the elite deviance that went on and still goes on...esp. with the ME-UK "royalty" - god bless you and keep you safe. We never do get the names or how far it went.

cc said...

On blindgossip.com, I posted a comment asking people there what they know/thought of Diana Jenkins. Ace didn't post my comments, and now my account is deleted.

Himmmmm said that Diana is the "rosetta stone" and "hub" of hollywood gossip; is there any chance Diana Jenkins IS Ace? Or has something do to with Ace? Either way, I think it's strange that Ace axed my account. I rarely commented anyway.

Sis said...

Wow...all I can say is Holy Sh*tballs!

Thank you Hmmmmm for sharing and I'm so glad you are back to your real and wonderful self! *Hugs*

Sad for Hayden P., when oh when are these people going to get into trouble, instead many are put on a pedestal with fame and fortune and people (especially kids) look up to these very degenerates aholes.

Thank Enty for your site, I read it every day and the CDaner's are outstanding and fun to read people. I love it!!

Now off to research....

Olivia Twist said...

As the adult child of a mother who knew about and encouraged the sexual abuse I suffered as a 5 year old at the hands of the men she hung around I have no problem believing this bi reveal by Himmmm.

Decotrash said...

Himmm ... please continue to write... Inspired.

Agnes said...

Hey everyone,

This is my first post. I have a lot to say and would like to remain anonymous. (Obviously Agnes is not my real name) but since this is linked with my google account..can people see my email address or anything?

Magnus33 said...

Now standing on the outside looking in it was not too hard to figure out who the poster is and who was being talked about.

The later i meet briefly by chance and though nice something felt off.

As for the former he doing his part to to help and point out some of the nastier people out there.

So i am going to say he guy fawkes and leave it at that...lol

cc said...

Agnes,

I clicked on your profile and saw nothing but "Agnes". Feel free to talk here.

mihalina said...

Himmm is not rdj,from a post dated march 23 2011 ( i think), himmm mentioned that his daughter's middle name was Elizabeth, and rdj does not have a daughter. I sincerely hope that if this is true, blind item gets some serious therapy and runs away for a few years. We all deseeve to be loved and healthy regardless of the things that may have shattered our spirits.

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mihalina said...

I hope himmmm thing dies down..

UNOG News said...

Hayden, it was revealed right?

8Ball said...

Hey Himmmm could you throw me an email? I thought I was one of a close circle that knew about some of the topics you mention.

anon762x51@gmail.com

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