It must be hard when you are surrounded by lots and lots of star wattage in your life
. When you are more famous for being offspring rather than for anything you do on your own. When the father figures in your life continually abandon you or are never there for you. When your real father repeatedly talks about what he thinks is acceptable behavior and a homosexual relationship is never acceptable in his mind. Sure, if a couple of women want to have sex in front of him, that is ok and he has made that perfectly clear, but there will be no same sex relationships. How then to express what you are thinking or feeling? No other parent to talk to, because she won't remember. Your siblings will listen, but they have their own lives and they don't understand. It's hard to be a celebrity when all you have done is be born. You have not asked or sought for or tried to be a celebrity, but there they are with cameras. Always. Never alone. Never can be who you are because it would disappoint dad. That crush you have had for the past two years. So close to telling her how you really feel. You should tell her and not just tell the few people closest in your life because, they obviously told me. Soon, they will tell others and you won't be able to control your story, it will be played out for you. I think you will be surprised at how much everyone will support you, including your family.