Your Turn
Over the past few weeks I have received lots of requests to have another anonymous week on Your Turn. People want to share things but want a place to do it where they can't be identified. So, since it has been awhile and there are lots of new readers since the last time, go ahead and reveal a secret you have not shared before or something else you would like to get off your chest or just vent about whatever you want. It is your forum so have at it. I will leave the anonymous feature on for a couple of days to let everyone have a chance.
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«Oldest ‹Older 201 – 250 of 2508) After I filed for divorce and until a couple of months ago, I was dating a horrible man who hates women, but is good at sex. The last time we were together, he physically hurt me during sex and I had to go to the doctor to make sure I didn't have internal injuries. I'm not with him anymore, but I have realized that I seem to be gravitating toward men who will treat me like scum because I feel I deserve it. This means I should not be with anyone until I don't feel this way anymore and I have not been and will continue to try not to be, but I really like sex.
9) I got laid off from my well-paying programmer job one week ago. I was already facing bankruptcy and know I will be jobless in December now. I may lose my house and I may have to move far away from my family and friends to get another that I'm qualified for.
So, I've been quite depressed for a long time now. I've been on meds, but the situational stuff is overtaking what my meds can do, and I don't want to go up on them anymore. My roommate (who I took in for extra money) has to wake me up in the morning. I couldn't sleep this week until Wednesday night because I broke down and drank. I hadn't drunk in 10 years until my divorce because it always hurt my stomach so bad, however, I have found a drink that "makes everything wonderful". This is bad and I know it. I have also considered checking myself in someplace lately but I think I just have to get through it. My psychiatrist wants to pull me out of work on Short Term Disability again, but that will burn any bridges to any possible internal positions so I just have to figure it out.
Knowing that I'm not alone and getting perspective by reading everyone's stories helps. A lot.
P.S. Whoever bitched about Mooshki can so shut the fuck up. She helped me when I posted things alluding to my problems and she's one of the people on here that literally helped me get through some days. And, yeah, Jax can take the criticism, but she's funny and has made me laugh many days where it's the ONLY laugh I've gotten. I've hardly seen Mooshki or Jax post all week, and I would appreciate it if mean people would not drive either of them off, as they help make the CDAN community the good place to go that it is. And I DON'T kiss anyone's ass.
Sorry, SO LONG had to break into two comments : ) But DAMN! That felt great!
10:29 You may be diabetic - insensitivity to pain/stimulus is a common symptom. (My dad apparently had at least one heart attach with no symptoms because of this) So is not being able to lose weight consuming low calories. See a doctor and don't be afraid to tell them ALL your problems. You just get some help and relief.
I've been married for 9 years. I love my husband, but I don't trust him. When I was 5 months pregnant I caught him having an online fling. I've forgiven him, but I'm still angry and I can't let it go. I've tried seeing a therapist and I cannot let go of it. My distrust has spilled over in other aspects of our relationship, and sometimes I wish I was single.
He's a good father, and he is still trying to redeem himself for his mistakes. Why can't I let this go???
My husband and I adopted a beautiful caucasian infant because we couldn't get pregnant. We had talked about adopting when we dated, so it was a dream of ours anyway. When our son turned 8 or so, he started exhibiting signs of mental illness. After years of medications, psychiatric hospitals, therapeutic boarding schools, rehab, jail, attorneys, and counseling--and a dozen diagnoses--we now believe he had fetal alcohol exposure in utero. Of course the adoption agency didn't know.
Not a day goes by when I don't regret taking the next step in getting pregnant which would have been in vitro fertilization. It cost a lot 20 years ago and wasn't covered by insurance. We could have afforded it, but we chased the dream of adoption.
6:08 I feel your pain - I have three wonderful kids, too. One of them I just never seemed to bond with after a certain age. I think it was after their real personality started to bloom. They remind me so much of my father, whom I love, but whom I don't respect. My father gets on my last nerve and has mannerisms and personality traits that I find very unattractive in the general public. God help me this child has all the same traits. My other two are so sweet and easy to love. The third is just difficult and very needy. The needier they get the more I feel myself pull away. I feel awful and guilty. I try not to let it show, but I know it does. I find myself riding this child's ass for every little thing. Even though they are the kind of kid that requires constant pushing to succeed, I still feel so bad. I share this with my husband and he doesn't judge me - he can see how this is possible, knowing my dad. He also reassures me that this child is just that type - they are not a "go-getter" - they must be pushed or they will just vegetate. He also finds them frustrating. It doesn't help that my mother made it very clear to me that I was her favorite growing up. It was a hard mantle to bear. I don't want the other kids to have that load on their shoulders, either.
I know that other parents have got to have these feelings, but are too ashamed to admit it. I actually am attuned to this and can see it in some of my friends families. I see it in other members of my family with their kids. However, no one would ever admit it.
I know that your children are people with personalities and you either fit with some people or you don't - why would someone being your child make that any different? However, it doesn't make it any less painful. I love all three of my kids so much, but I just can't feel close to the one like I can the others. They are all the same sex and all good looking, so it isn't anything like that. This child is popular and other's consider them really funny and endearing, but I just don't seem to appreciate most of their humor - they're a "center of attention", self-centered kind of kid - a personality type that grates for me. I pray everyday that I'll feel differently, but I never do. I hope that one day they make good and I don't have to worry about them being completely fucked up by my upbringing and growing up believing that I never loved them which is so far from true. Maybe they don't even notice, but I know that they do. I can see it in the way they look at me sometimes and I just want to disappear.
I cannot stand my niece and nephew. I feel horrible saying that, but it is the truth. They whine constantly, the niece constantly has to be the center of attention. I dread when my daughter spends any time with either of them. Probably a lot of my dislike stems from the fact that I cannot stand my sister in law. She is everything I loathe: fake, into appearances, ultra conservative and does not have an independent thought. I pity her because she is miserable, and I've noticed that she is drinking-a lot. So much in fact that she has been carrying a flask. I make no effort to help her because I cannot stand who she is and what she stands for.
Here in America we think it is perfectly acceptable to slice women's chests open and stuff plastic blobs in them then stitch them back up. We also idealize starvation. How barbaric is that?
Hate the customs, not the people.
To 11:56: your comment on Christians was the very definition of "smarmy smugness"... just sayin'.
To the professional who is a heroin user for five years, please rent the Michael Keaton movie where he is a professional who is a drug user, loses everything and ends up in rehab. (can't remember the name of the movie) Anyway, that is your future. If you are lucky. Otherwise you are a walking dead man/woman just a step away from ruining your life and destroying the peace of mind of family and friends who love you. Quit being an idiot/scared/in denial/whatever and end the drug use. TODAY. I don't know you but I lost sleep over you last night.
To the people who are depressed and stuck in dead end lives/marriages/jobs/health issues. Please take one step towards a better life. TODAY. And another one tomorrow and the next day and the next. That's how it works. It's a grind but if you keep moving forward you can get yourself in a better place. Only you can do it. Life can be good for anyone but you can't sit there imobilized by fear. That is a dead end.
For those who have never been kissed/married/loved. Act like the person you want to be. Get out of your own head and look at who is around you. Be the first one to say hello to someone. If they don't respond it's nothing personal. Keep it up until you find someone interesting that replies to you.
To all those who say how much they hate Republicans, Christians, etc., you crack me up. You project your own prejudices onto everyone around you who isn't one of your kind and think they feel what you yourself are feeling, which is intolerance and hatred to anyone who doesn't think like you. Whatever.
And finally to Muslims. I am sure that there are millions of Muslims who live perfectly ordinary lives with their families and are not breeding suicide bombers. However, some of you are cheering them on from the sidelines in the name of religion. You are wrong. There is no paradise with the virgins waiting for the martyrs. The Muslim faith is a lie. And if you allows others to kiil in the name of your religion and defend them, you are helping to foster the hate people seem to have for your so called religion
Just sayin'.
10:01 (I'll pretend that you're anonymous if you like, although we all know who you are) it's not our fault you're not smart enough to figure out what it is that we have a problem with. Hint: it's not that you have differing opinions from us. I'd guess maybe 10% of readers at most think the same way either of us does. And, by the way, how hypocritical is it that you are always jumping on us because we have a different opinion than you? Obviously, this blog has a strong basis in snark. But snark is sarcastic and humorous, and it brings us together in fun. What you do is mean-spirited, and it degrades the community.
Neither of us thinks that we "know it all." We both frequently admit to making mistakes. And we aren't "ass kissers," we just stand up for our friends, and we consider Enty in particular a dear friend. Neither of us is afraid to disagree with Enty when we think he's wrong about something.
Your anger is hurting yourself more than anyone else. When I see Ror's name in the comments, I usually just skip right over anything he says. Why can't you do the same for me and Jax?
To the woman who wants to move overseas where people are tolerant of transexuals. You are way over thinking this thing. Just be a woman and shut up about it. If you find a man you like, tell him your story. If he is someone worth knowing and a good fit for you, he will learn to deal with this. But you sound bitter, so just let the rest of it go already. If your as stunningly beautiful and womanly as you say, then you should quit blaming your country and just deal with it as it comes.
The woman of my dreams is a 60yo pre-operative MTF transsexual who made her living as a dominatrix. I want to be her collared slave.
I haven't smoked in two weeks after 23 years of addiction. I can already see and feel the positive changes. Yea me!
Anon@6:08am
i think EVERY parent with more than 1 child has a favorite(s), they just don't admit it. kudos to you for that:)
that being said, i don't think you should feel bad about a lack of connection with one child. i think parents sometimes overlook the fact that their kids are also PEOPLE.
just because you feel an obligation as a parent to love one child the same as the other(s) doesn't mean that that's realistic. i think the best you can do is try to accept them for who they are, just as you would with anybody else in your world.
Mooshki, i think you just validated anon @ 10:01's point.
LOL
Mooshki said...
10:01 (I'll pretend that you're anonymous if you like, although we all know who you are)
there's that know it all factor i was talking about.
i don't think you have a fuckin' clue who i am. actually, i KNOW you don't.
I HATE MY NEIGHBOURS! These dirtbag, inbreeding, mofo's have been invading our public road space fore'er! Junky vehicles, dogs running amok and their children... OMG!!! DO NOT get me started on those brats...
That felt good... Now, that being said...
@Anonymous (all of you!)... get the F*CK out! If you are being beaten or abused in any way, get the f*ck out! Come HERE (really! - send me email and I will take you in!!!)... go anywhere but, get the f*ck out!
@dbfreak... I wish you the best! Your "wusband" sounds like an awful piece of sh*t! I pray you can get what you need and put closure to this. What a fuck-wad!
IF ANYONE needs ANY help or a place to stay, please let me know! I CANNOT abide by this beating-on-women shit.
I AM HERE if ANYONE needs help!
Cory
Dbfreak; that's a terrible story; hope you're in counseling so you can shore up your self esteem; so this doesn't happen again. Good thing you didn't have kids; you can completely erase him from your life and never lay eyes on him again..............
@ ANON 8:18
you are an idiot , sorry honey but bilingual education spanish /english works wonders , i also happen to speak italian and i am not american nor would i wish i was , i want all the idiots that think that because you don't live in the states you are miserable and sad , i happen to live very happy and i feel awesome so stop being such a sotare which i know you must absolutely know the meaning right? then arigato , moron.
see how wonderful it is i can totally insult you in so many languages ,cool.
"i don't think you have a fuckin' clue who i am. actually, i KNOW you don't."
C'mon, we all know you're Denise Richards. That doesn't make me a 'know-it-all,' it's just obvious to anyone with half a brain. Duh!
I just wanted to say that I am a Mooshki/Jax fan also. I don't think they scare others away, there is lots of back and forth between many people, but it is all in good fun. I don't think they take it to the level where others can't express their opinion.
Also, although I am not a nutritionist, for the people trying to lose weight: have you ever tried low/no carb-sugar? It is really hard the first couple of weeks, but then it gets easy, and you will be surprised at how good you feel and how the weight just drops off. Just a thought, anyway.
I quit taking my meds in late June. I have been on a variety of anti-anxiety, anti-depressions and ocd medications for 16 years. I quit taking them without medical consent and haven't told anyone. I have also never felt better.
Firstly, I think that Jax & Mooshki are GREAT, not at all " know-it-all ass kissing shitheads".
I gotta go with the anti-muslim sentiment, wish I didn't though. I just don't understand why they stay here (whether born here or not)if they hate the west and the U.S. sooooo much they plot terrorist acts. Not a violent religion you say? How about that American who converted to Islam and just got caught parking at a business in an effort to wage jihad (thankfully w/ fake explosives supplied to him).
I don't trust most men (they make babies and leave),and think most marriages are doomed to fail.
Thanks for the support guys. :) Though it was petty of me to even respond in the first place when so many people here are talking about real problems. Life is hard.
I am tired of waiting for my husband to get his shit together and get a job. Yes, I know it's a bad economy, but when I heard him discuss how his "trading" makes him less motivated to look for anything, while I slave away at a job I hate for 60 hours a week on a 10 percent furlough, it makes me so angry I can't see straight.
Not to mention he hasn't touched me in almost 2 years. I stopped initiating sex six months after that. I don't believe in begging.
How do you throw someone out that never leaves the goddamn sofa? I'd leave, but it's MY house.
I was in the process of filing for divorce when he lost his job. I pulled back, because I felt sorry for him. Now, not so much.
This was the most incredible outpouring of emotions and deep thought I think I have ever witnessed. I never commented this time.
But today working out I ran over a handful of thoughts that would mirror some of y'all's enough to let me know one thing...
I'm normal, and so are all of us!!!
I haven't read whatever is going on w/ any Mooshki /Jax hubbub, but I for one love Mooshki's current avatar.
To Moosh: hubby wants me to ask your permission to use that toothy ostrich pic on something (private) of his--just in case you did the graphic yourself or something. We have several old, old work websites w/ much original content and hubby always has to chase people down for links or damages.
I suppose I should have PM'ed you on this, but hey--wtf--I'm drunk tonight. I have no life other than work and CDAN, but I can now PAY BILLS this winter!!!
Still reading...but pretty wild to me that people are lumping Mooshki and Jax together in any fashion! If you've been either lurking on commenting for more than a couple years you'd know they are totally different, in many ways, and nicely so.
I also see nothing wrong with jax and mooshki. In fact, on my reader photo day they both told me how gorgeous I was.
Maybe they do know it all! ;)
10:29 AM - talk to your partner maybe? He may look upon it as a challenge...
I wish I was only 185 - but I hope to get down to that. 165-170 is my optimal weight.
And I have body issues too, probably worse than yours objectively. So I know where you're coming from. If I sniff a lettuce leaf I gain weight.
Too bad you're on the other side of the world, we could share a cup of tea or a latte and commiserate with each other, lend each other books etc.
I guess I just wanted to say that you're not alone. I'm happily married, but neither of us is sexually attracted to each other, and we haven't slept together for many years.
Hugs (virtual), Zoe
To the women with abusing husbands/partners: call the hotline, they can not only get you out and hide you safely, they can help you rebuild your life.
To anyone bitching about anyone else on here -- suck it up. What a boring world it would be if everyone was just like YOU.
I love this blog, which I stumbled onto sometime this year. I love how the people try to support each other and how they feel comfortable with each other enough to ask for help. I don't have many friends, by choice, but I like reading about them.
Don't have a clue who Enty is -- I picture him as a Wizard of Oz type, lol.
I think Jax and Mooshki are both interesting and smart women and I enjoy their comments on here.
Selena, I just found it randomly on the internet. If hubby wants a bigger version, email me and I'll send it to you.
dbfreak:
reset the game. you write all of this but what the heck..stop writing and start DOING your life.
work your a** off, pay off the debt, MOVE to a new area (not in that order), and LIVE what you want to live and screw this P of S, i am tired just reading.
PS: like and dont like the "your turn" makes me want to do group therapy..which is great if people actually listen to the advice.
@Anon 10:01, I agree with you.
For the others that don't feel attractive, you have to work at it. I suggest buying a copy of Allure or Lucky (or LouLou if you're in Canada) and it'll give you style tips. DO THEM!!!!!!!! Trust me, it works. You may obsess over your faults but no one else does, trust me.
My problem is I'm overly conceited. Every now and then I get knocked off my pedestal but after reading some of the comments, I needed to share.
Ladies, figure out what your best quality is, then exploit the hell out of it.
My best quality?
I'm the gal with the "wonderful personality". Always was.
But I don't actually sour the milk in the udders of cows 10 kilometers away. 5, maybe....
Yet I've found love. Or it's found me. I have no cause for complaint. And if I can hit the Jackpot, it's possible for anyone.
Anon @12:00
I have five nieces and nephews, all on my husband's side. I can't stand two of them, for the exact same reason. Their mother, who I also can't stand, is making them into passive-aggressive, entitled nervous wrecks. Even my husband doesn't like being around them and has complained to me many times about them.
Just because they're "family" doesn't mean you have to sit back and smile when they're being turned into terrible people. If I'm around them, which isn't often, I don't talk to them.
Their mother believes that she and they should get all the attention from my MIL, and she pouts, literally, when she isn't getting her way. Mind you, this is a grown woman who is nearing 50, not a little kid.
My kids are still quite young, but they told me they don't like how their cousins act. So luckily, there's no worries about them picking up that atrocious behavior.
These kids are going to (or already have, I suspect) going to get their little asses handed to them when they're let out of their house. I know it's terrible to think like this, but then again, if they were raised better, this wouldn't be a possibility.
Wow you guys - reading all of these makes me realize how lucky I am and thankful for how my life has changed. I have a degree in Psychology and it took me five years of living with my boyfriend to figure out I was being emotionally abused - that's how insidious it is, and how brainwashed you become. It is not as easy as just taking off and leaving - especially when abuser leads you to believe they would harm themselves if you did so. It is very, very difficult and my thoughts are with everyone out there who is in such a situation.
I found someone who stuck with me through that time of trying to separate myself from that man, and we are now married and have an amazing baby boy. I was never sure I wanted to have children until I met my husband - finding love with him changed my outlook completely. I couldn't wait to create a life with him and expand our love. Sorry if it's sappy, but it's so true! I used to dread the thought of bringing a new innocent life into this fucked up world, and it still worries me from time to time, but all I can do is raise him to be a cool cat and help make the world a better place. Perhaps by teaching him that everyone is different and those differences, even as strange as they may seem to you, should be respected (and in some cases, politely ignored). :P
To all of you who don't want kids - I would never tell you that you will someday change your mind just because I did. I never thought I'd take to it like I did, and love it so much. As I said, everyone is different. Good luck to everyone here - may those in their darkest hour soon see the light! :*
Hmmm... again, reading what some have gone through makes me count my blessings.
True Confessions time...
I have a really, really, REALLY rare congenital medical condition. It's a form of Intersex. Some of you may have read about the South African teenage athlete, Caster Semenya. And the controversy of whether she's "really" a woman, or a man, or something on-between.
She has the xy chromosomes usually only found in men (though you'd be surprised how many other women have them, including mothers), no cervix or womb, and rather than ovaries, she has internal testes. Rather masculinised generally - but she also has a vagina, breasts, and a vulva like any other girl.
A relatively common condition, 1 in 20,000, so there's be almost 10,000 women like her in the USA, most of whom would not be aware of their condition - unless they visit a fertility clinic, or play competitive sport. It can come as quite a shock if it happens to you.
Almost as common, 1 in 50,000 or so, are two syndromes that cause masculinisation of apparent girls at puberty - they're born looking female, but get a "natural sex change" to male. Great if they're boys, a nightmare for any woman though.
My own syndrome is rare though. One in several million. It's the opposite. I was born looking male, but normalised at puberty. Unfortunately, puberty happened at age 47.
While my life has not been nearly as horrid as that of many women here, my situation has been a challenge, with complications you can only imagine. Trans women have some idea, but there's legal problems even they don't face.
I'd actually done reasonably well, as a woman pretending to be a man because she looked like one, mostly. Not completely, I was diagnosed as Intersexed in 1985, but an Intersexed man not an Intersexed woman. That only changed with puberty in 2005.
I'm married - but neither of us are lesbian. I have a child - medical help extracted gametes from male glands that were barely functional, and which atrophied completely a few years later.
I don't advertise my situation, but I don't keep it a great secret either. Too many people around me saw the change happening, it was pretty spectacular. Incomplete though, I'll never bear children. And my looks, while not too bad, are not great. I have self-image issues, as you can imagine. But things are so much better now, I may not look good, but at least I'm no longer mistaken for a guy.
I associate with Trans women, as in effect, I am one. Their transition required medical assistance, mine didn't - no great difference. It's only when I go to an endocrinologist that I'm reminded that I'm not like they are, or like more than a thousand people on the planet are, if that many.
My heart goes out to those who, while not facing such unusual challenges, have had things far worse in many ways. I hope that by posting this, by showing that challenges can be overcome, it will give them hope, and enable them to find the strength within themselves to improve their situation. You all have it, you know. You can do this. I'm no-one special, and I've managed, so you can too.
Thanks everyone for your support. I have always considered myself a survivor, so it's not like I'm just going to give up just because I've had a seriously crappy last 18 months or so : )
I have been in counseling and I am working on things and taking each blow as it comes the best I can.
@delilah - the point of this Your Turn was to unburden oneself. I've overcome many other challenges in my life that would have probably taken up many more comments, but I don't feel the need to unburden myself about them as I *have* moved on from them. Telling me to "stop writing and start living" came off as fairly dismissive and judgmental, and I don't appreciate it. If you got tired of reading you should have stopped. This was about me, and I wasn't looking for that kind of treatment and don't believe I deserve it.
@ZoeBrain - your story is amazing and is a wonderful example of handling something that is more difficult than most people have ever had to handle in their lives very elegantly and very well. I bow to you.
Thanks, Enty for letting us all vent. It's hard "letting it all hang out" but it's cathartic, too. Thanks to all the supportive, wonderful people on this website who have made me laugh on some pretty rough days. FTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't like that most phones have to have you press 1 for English, I think if you are in America, you should be able to speak the language, which is English, not Spanish. I also hate how people take advantage of the government. I admit it, I was on Medicaid when I was pregnant, but I have my own insurance for me and my son now, that's not government assistance. I used to work at an urgent care, and it drove me nuts when people (mainly girls 18-30 years old) would come in to be seen. They would have no obvious disabilities or health problems, except for the cold symptoms or whatever they were there for, but would not be employed. They would also normally be dressed in FuBu or SeanJohn or some other brand name. Their insurance - medicaid. It made me mad that they were basically doing nothing but having a kid or 2, and everyone else is supporting them by paying for their health care (medicaid), food (food stamps), and money (cash assistance), and people like me who have to work 2 jobs to barely survive and can't afford to buy the most fashionable clothes.
It also bugs me that on Sunday night, the anon feature has been turned off, or if it hasn't I can't figure out how to use it, cause I would be bitching about other things!
I'm glad I'm not American. There. I said it.
Wow, Zoe, I really give it up to you for being so honest. You seem like a happy person, and no one can ask for more than that.
I enjoy ALL of the voices on this blog ... it's why I keep coming back, and even if I don't agree with some people, I always learn something.
Mooshki keeps churning out those awesome Enty graphics, which is reason enough to come back!
Anon 12:43 my ex boyfriend abused me and I finally got up the courage to put him in jail when he put a cigarette out on my leg. I ended up losing my house because of his drug problem but in my opinion that isn't as bad as being involved with him anymore. Good luck and hang in there your day will come when you get fed up and don't want to take it anymore.
dbfreak
congrats on getting out!
i was there, too, even tried to provoke physical violence so i'd finally have an excuse to leave. i married very young, and finally got out after 5-1/2 years. i remarried and still adore my husband after 25 years (in feb.). i think you and i may have compared stories here in the past.
i DID have a son, and still feel guilty that i couldn't protect him better (he and i were talking about this last night). my son finally has belief in a higher power, but i'm very worried about the beliefs of this church. but he's a fine man, in spite of it all, with a lovely wife.
i had nothing when i moved out either, and the ex lied to the court AND quit his job the very night i left, leaving me pregnant and with no health insurance. he never worked "over the table" again.
the verbal abuse continued with my son, who was diagnosed as bi-polar with depression at 16. and let's not forget the neglect, another long story. neighbors out at his house would call me to report what had happened, but had to continue to live near this asshole, so wouldn't get involved legally.
i was lucky enough to have best friends that said "we love you (and son) and you can come here any time you want. but (asshole) is no longer welcome in our home, and we won't come to your house if he is there any more.
of course, it didn't hurt that the great love of my life resurfaced around the same time, and was able to show me how a man treats a woman he cares for. *ahem*
when i left, i intended to keep things civil. i actually spoke the words "maybe we can finally be friends". it would not have done me any good in CA in 1984 to discuss verbal/mental abuse, spousal rape, and of that good shit. just like it didn't do him any good to go in and say i was a drunk, couldn't hold a job (i hadn't worked since my son was born), my parents (!) were drunks, etc. etc. but his playing on the judge's sympathy by showing up without his leg (amputee) worked to some effect. worked on a lot of people. oh, and did i mention he got rid of my cat? that i actually got "custody" of? an indoor, declawed, chickenshit cat who was afraid of outside?
db, that was another bit of mental control. the claim of "he ran away" was absolutely not true.
15 years i cried over that cat. ok, i still do. oddly, after i left, ALL the pets "ran away".
anyway, sorry. my shrink made me start talking about this crap last week. i had nightmares for 2 nights. i blocked out a lot of stuff (if you are lucky, you will, too, once you are safe). the asshole died about 4 years ago, and i said here before (maybe even anon) i'm not sad. he made our lives hell. his death was his own fault. lol, when my parents paid for a shrink for me when my son was a baby (stomach problems), it was suggested he attend. he
claimed there was nothing wrong with him. yeah. he'd never had either physical or psych therapy after he lost his leg.
i made a wonderful choice, there. oh, and he'd already reeled me in when i found out about the initial lies, and i didn't want to believe them then. another long story.
db, come msg me on facebook.
i am sorry but I am shocked at all the anti Muslim/anti minorities comments I know it is an occasion for you to let it all out but how dare you ! it only shows how much you rely on prejudges without even knowing if they are true or not I suppose does it makes you feel better about yourself ? it is conceited and ignorant people like you that makes life so much harder than it often needs to be I hope I will never have to meet people like you in my life
i am giving this testimony cos l am happy
My name is mrs. Deborah Collins from Houston,taxes.i never believed in love spells or magic until i met this spell caster once. when i went to Africa in APRIL this year on a business summit. i ment a man called dr. Atakpo.He is powerful he could help you cast a spells to bring back my love’s gone,misbehaving lover looking for some one to love you, bring back lost money and magic money spell or spell for a good job.i’m now happy & a living testimony cos the man i had wanted to marry left me 3 weeks before our wedding and my life was upside down cos our relationship has been on for 2 years… i really loved him, but his mother was against me and he had no good paying job. so when i met this spell caster, i told him what happened and explained the situation of things to him..at first i was undecided,skeptical and doubtful, but i just gave it a try. and in 6 days when i returned to taxes, my boyfriend (is now my husband ) he called me by himself and came to me apologizing that everything had been settled with his mom and family and he got a new job interview so we should get married..i didn’t believe it cos the spell caster only asked for my name and my boyfriends name and all i wanted him to do… well we are happily married now and we are expecting our little kid,and my husband also got a new job and our lives became much better. in case anyone needs the spell caster for some help, email address atakpospelltemple@yahoo.com
Great Atakpo i thank you very much thank you in 1000000 times.. if not you i would have been losted and wasted thank you.
please make sure you contact him for any financial difficulties okay..
What a powerful man such as Dr Atakpo.. he is so much powerful..\\ email him for any difficulties.. atakpospelltemple@yahoo.com
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